Question:
Dear Sir,
Since we talked the last time, I have been pondering on one question: why are you the way you are and why am I the way I am or Jiddu the way he is or Osho?
I mean, we briefly talked about this a few months ago. We talked about: “A wound is a place where the light enters you”. We said that being sensitive is the door.
Sir, when I look at my childhood, I had an extremely traditional upbringing. For four years, I learned the art of rituals and that too from teachers and I was at the top of my class. I even won a ritual scholarship which luckily never materialised. Like all my friends, before IMT and in IMT, I was subjected to the same tirade of falseness.
Now I did my MBA, I had a 98 plus percentile and I would have gone to IIM if I had made it. I took a high paying job – the only difference was I knew (at least partly) that all this was rubbish – careers were rubbish. I knew. I always knew. I knew what you were saying before I met you or knew you. But you made me know that I know.
Why am I not ambitious? Why do I see falseness? Is is genetics? Is it conditioning? Is it plain luck?
